Nowadays, I'm kind worried with my future. It's really hard for me to find the right way. It looks like i fake it everything i did to everyone. Even for my family too. i dont know why, i making this fake thing to people. Hmmm..
My heart is felling unwell, i dont know why. It just not rite time to tell the truth. Everthing that i fake or lied to them, i still remember. And, i still wonder why everone feel enjoy with their life. and how bout me? i never feel fine, it looks like im dreaming, it's not real world, or i lost to somwhere..
I'm might be crazy, or devil have been through my body and my soul, and i cant denied it. it wierd, where am i? the thing that i did, the friends that i meet, and the love that i cant find it. where am i? it really make me fell scared. im smile to them, but inside of me, im not well. im maked it all, so they no need worry about me. they are so bleesed, and me? im not bleesed, it looks like my destiny so hard to face it. everthing that i tried, it the end to wrong path. i never know what going on later...
i feel want to suicide, but i cant. its been so long that i cant denied it to tell the thruth that my life is so annoying. im never happy, im never relief that i enjoy this life. im never wanted to meet a lot of people, i dont like the person speak so well to me, but behind me they actually dont like me. i tried to change it, start from zero, and the result still same. noone wanted me, nobody like me. im depress with my life.
my family teached me to surive, but im not happy when they told me about that, it just i cant accept it. friend tried to be friendly with me, but i cant accept that afterall. its really2 wierd, i dont know what to do now. everyone have secreat, im just telling you, that im big liar. but honestly, i just wanted to get attention seriously from everyone. people can accept me like this, family no need to lied to me about myself, friend tell me that you dont like me, jsut tell me. my life still long to go, and i dont know where is the stop.
nobodies wanted me isnt it? even the person i know very well, they dont want me rite? i'm standing alone in this world, am i still survive? or im alredy death? lost by time, people, and my self.....
right now, i will live under the fake...........
My heart is felling unwell, i dont know why. It just not rite time to tell the truth. Everthing that i fake or lied to them, i still remember. And, i still wonder why everone feel enjoy with their life. and how bout me? i never feel fine, it looks like im dreaming, it's not real world, or i lost to somwhere..
I'm might be crazy, or devil have been through my body and my soul, and i cant denied it. it wierd, where am i? the thing that i did, the friends that i meet, and the love that i cant find it. where am i? it really make me fell scared. im smile to them, but inside of me, im not well. im maked it all, so they no need worry about me. they are so bleesed, and me? im not bleesed, it looks like my destiny so hard to face it. everthing that i tried, it the end to wrong path. i never know what going on later...
i feel want to suicide, but i cant. its been so long that i cant denied it to tell the thruth that my life is so annoying. im never happy, im never relief that i enjoy this life. im never wanted to meet a lot of people, i dont like the person speak so well to me, but behind me they actually dont like me. i tried to change it, start from zero, and the result still same. noone wanted me, nobody like me. im depress with my life.
my family teached me to surive, but im not happy when they told me about that, it just i cant accept it. friend tried to be friendly with me, but i cant accept that afterall. its really2 wierd, i dont know what to do now. everyone have secreat, im just telling you, that im big liar. but honestly, i just wanted to get attention seriously from everyone. people can accept me like this, family no need to lied to me about myself, friend tell me that you dont like me, jsut tell me. my life still long to go, and i dont know where is the stop.
nobodies wanted me isnt it? even the person i know very well, they dont want me rite? i'm standing alone in this world, am i still survive? or im alredy death? lost by time, people, and my self.....
right now, i will live under the fake...........
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